On day 4, I May Fall played on my headphones while I was at work. I could match up the moments in the song perfectly to Velvet's scene in episode 11. When it gets to when Velvet reveals Penny's swords, I break down in tears.
On day 13, I can listen to Shine without crying. (Dream Come True still turns me into a sobbing mess.) I haven't brought myself to watch episode 12 again, can't even fathom doing it without dread shooting down my spine.
On day 22, I make a dark joke about Arkos and don't immediately regret it.
It's been three weeks.
I'm still not okay.